migblog

in flagrante delicto

i got home after work on saturday pretty late; i was in bed by 3, but that was after taking a quick shower.

and yes, 3 in the morning. i got up at 11.30 to cursorily greet toby and sawako, but i went back to sleep because i was so tired. i didn't wake up until around 5, in which case the sun had already started to head west. i spent all day lazing about and feeling a little useless.

it's times like these that i really appreciate garfield and friends.

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now that i don't have cable, i try and make it a point to go somewhere that shows the world cup games. or at least, religiously refresh my espn page at home.

the weekends are the best, since abc actually cares enough to show the games. and when you grow up playing football, it kinda sticks with you.

BRASIL!

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when you're straddling so many different lines, it's hard to keep up with the world because you're so busy trying to balance yourself, what with one thing wanting you to change and another pulling you to become stagnant; another puzzling you with affections and another forcing you out of habit.

i don't shun. and if you think i do, let me know. i'll prove it otherwise.

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there is, for lack of better terms, an absence of momentum. in fact there's an absence of order altogether; it seems as if everyone in my life is dealing with a terrific disarray of all things considered, from accidents to losses to work-induced tiredness. from dogs to cars, from food to computers, everyone's still on edge, and the momentum is nowhere to be found.

it seems as if this was all happening two weeks ago, and it's still happening. there's no shift from more to less since it's constant.

and it hurts. to see lives around me change is insane, since i myself seel so punctuated.

have i been caught red-handed being complacent?

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there is only one way to go, and that's up.
there is only one way to go, and that's up.
there is only one way to go, and that's up.
there is only one way to go, and that's up.
there is only one way to go, and that's up.

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some days, i feel as if i don't feel enough.

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i realized today that friends are by far the best measure of your character.

i love my friends.

posted by Open Source Food @ 12:03 PM