migblog

some people really just need to chill the fuck out. i know it's intimidating and everything, berkeley, but damn, chill out! one day of hectic frenzy does not amount to the years you've spent being here. and if you wonder why people around you mock you and criticize you, grow some balls and deal with it. like, seriously deal with it, don't just brush it off as "it's just another slap to the face thanks a lot guys boo hoo i'm going to kill myself" bullshit. i've had it with this kind of mentality -- and mind you, i'm not just talking about one person -- but goddamn it, if you're not realizing what a fucking cockout it is the way you talk about being here, then don't be here!

on another note, the weather sucks. i'm sure it probably doesn't suck as to, say, boston a couple days ago, but it's on-and-off nice-not-nice alternation here. suffice it to say i could have been in shorts and a parka today, and no, i'm not exaggerating. there was one point in the day when the rain was horizontal (compared to one day last week when it hailed for a few hours), and then, twenty minutes later, sunshine and rainbows like a motherfucking lucky charms ad.

i woke up yesterday with a beautifully sore throat (just in time for a vocal audition, yay). i've been on sore throat spray and water, so hopefully soon i'll be better.

the thing that gets me the most is that one of my big papers is due on tuesday; and unlike other people in the class who have been diligently working and researching their topics, interviewing their folks and attending office hours, i have been sitting on my ass, watching tv or downloading something on itunes because as much as i'd like to care, i don't, and i think that's really really sad. tuesday, folks. four days. come to think of it, less than; but do i really want to work that hard during a weekend that looks like one of the funnest i'll never get to experience?

the mac i have at home is working beautifully. no crashing, no problems, and lots of disk space. but one my beauty of an external hard drive comes in (read: 250 GB), i will be so ridiculously happy and content with the amount of stuff i can put on my computer. yay macintosh. yay simplicity. and yes, i have to say, i'm convinced that it's one of the best things to happen to my computing life.

on yet another note, looking at site stats, there's been this recurring search result from trondheim, norway; i think that's rather odd yet somehow cool. tor (yes, THE tor, ie. chappy's roommate) hails from the city (tor heine traeland, to be exact; if any of you norwegians read this and know tor, holla back); also, chappy was there for a while when he lived in norway. coincidence? probably. cool? the fuck yeah.

as for the pope's death, i actually did feel a lot sad when they finally announced the news. i remember seeing the pope when he was in manila for the 10th world youth day; there was a magnificent crowd when he held mass and i remember getting communion among thousands of people singing praise to the pope. he's a cool guy. and what makes him even better is what he did for this church: he asked for forgiveness from the crusades, from jews (for blaming that they killed jesus when jesus himself was a jew), from islam, from science (galileo being one of the most prominent figures in church history)... he revolutionized the way roman catholics see the church, and i highly appreciate him for that.

speaking of which, i felt like i went to mass for the first time in a long time when i viewed the requiem mass on tv this morning. it felt odd to remember all the little quirks, like what to say after transubstanciation, what to sing during the litany of saints, and when exactly to nod your head in reverence and respect. it felt right, and i felt good. like lewis black says, man needs a ritual, and i think going to church when i was young helped reinforce that.

sigh. sorry for the long-ish update. congratulations for making it this far.

and now, more procrastination.

posted by Open Source Food @ 5:11 PM