migblog

never say no.

i would think it's a bit on the safe side to say that if i'm not sleeping all that well, then something's going on inside my head.

i thought i'd get over these silly dreams of falling nonstop or being in new york again or seeing a few faces i will never see in those ghastly night visions i have. but sometimes, there's also the friends and the things that make me smile in the background -- constantly in the background -- that i can always talk to but never reach.

extended periods of sleep evaded me this week, save for yesterday when i slept at three and woke up at noon. every other day i would fall asleep, wake up in a cold sweat or wake up because it's too hot or wake up from that bad dream, try for the longest time to fall back asleep, and the process repeats itself. it's a bit nerve-wracking and stressful, just this sleeping thing.

so, with that, if you see me this week and i look a little tired or down, it's the lack of sleep. my body's hurting.

and on an off-tangent: don't expect people to come rushing to you when you think you have a voice. it's a bit selfish. in particular, if you know that there's someone out there you're talking to, just let them take in what you've given them and wait for the results. it's not becoming of you to go, i want attention, i want comments, i want praise. there's a difference in saying leave something behind and saying tell me everything you thought about this. it's... for lack of a better word, unprofessional.

i'm going to be down in los angeles for the weekend for the cal-fucla game at the rose bowl, by the way. (you can still buy tickets, i'm sure.) if you're in the immediate area, let me know because i only have one free night. and in that, i have to get up at six the next morning to catch the busses.

can someone promise me that this won't hurt?

posted by Open Source Food @ 10:03 AM