migblog

now i won't try to be all deep or anything, but this week has seriously been so life-changing, it's amazing.

i've never felt like this before. trite as it may sound, it's such a new experience getting all wrapped up in this. the theme for the week was something along the lines of "oh my god" -- which sometimes can be a good thing, and in such a case as this one, it is -- which just, in my opinion, seems to epitomize the growing confusion and fun i'm having. i've surprised myself, even, on how i've been acting the past few days.

my head's telling me things i don't understand, and i like it. like what to do and how to act and what to say and when to say it... nobody knows what the fuck i'm talking about, and i know it might not be the greatest thing to not know (jacob, seriously, i'm sorry you felt that way) but i've probably told you twice that i'll tell you more when i'm ready. life-changing. you don't think it can happen until it happens to you, then no one believes you. the irony, eh... life throws us some curveballs we just can't avoid, the ones that matter the most. and when the realization hits us square between the eyes, there's really nothing else you can do about it but grin and bear it, or if you're a particularly optimistic person, you just smile and enjoy what's given to you. now it won't apply to things like losing a loved one or getting into an accident, but more of the serendipitous things that came along in the right place at the right time. like finding money under your bed or getting an unexpected kiss from someone you'd been dreaming about.

that's really the only thing i can say for now. just... cherish the fact that i'm smiling again. it feels good to smile. this might start a trend of me smiling a lot more than usual. and as you know, smiling is never a bad thing.

posted by Open Source Food @ 4:02 PM