migblog

it seems as if everything's going your way one day, and then all of a sudden, screech, turn around, and head the exact opposite. "there's nowhere to go but up" comes to mind. there really wasn't.

the past two weeks, life wanted to boot all over my face. it did. and then it kinda spread onto everything, which wasn't nice because i went about two days with mental instability. so much, in fact, that i barely talked to anyone, paid no attention in class, got no work done, and cried myself to sleep. as for what it was exactly that was making me do it, i have no clue. it was a combination of things: stress, school, responsibility, and some personal issues i was drealing with at the time. it all culminated into this glorious horrible piece of crap weekend that resulted in jacob falling off of his bed and making me realize what a dumbass i was being. i really need to thank everybody who had been looking out for me. i owe you people so much, and i don't ever believe that thank you will ever suffice.

so the week after, after that low gray area, i felt kinda better. i knew i was getting there when i started to smile again, when i started feeling good about a women's basketball game. (you can only feel so good after a women's game.) and then some nasty physical things started happening, then they culminated after chinese new year's parade, and lo and behold, i'm kinda all better. kinda. not fully recovered, mind you, i'm still sorting stuff out in my head, but good enough so that i'm not a pisshead when it comes down to things.

and on a lighter note, everyone's all of a sudden interested on what's going on between me and shereen. (alan keeps asking if i'm doing his grandma bear. and people in the house have asked me a buttload of times.) if you wanna know, ask shereen. all i can say is that we're engaged.

yeah. i'm better.

posted by Open Source Food @ 12:19 AM