migblog

ever get that feeling of being insignificant? i mean, when other people look at you, what do they see? then you wonder... what's it like to be in other people's shoes and ultimately their viewpoint? this intrigues me so much... and then, when you look at that, figure that there are six billion plus more people walking around not wondering about that. they could probably care less. some of them are wondering whether to go to the country house or the country club tomorrow, others are trying to survive in the country, others don't even have a country. it's amazing, this pool of diversity.

so along the lines of feeling insignificant, i wrote this next part of abstractia in response to feeling so helpless. it's the worst emotion ever, knowing that there's a situation but you can't do much about it except watch it unfold before your very eyes. it's heartbreaking and eye-opening. it shatters so many things, but when they're rebuilt, they're so much stronger in the end. so here's to never reliving the trauma of june 28, 2002:

helplessness

helpless
oh so helpless
unable to do anything about any situation
unwilling to move
willing to give in to anything

painful
very painful
knowing full well the gravity of the event-at-hand
acutely sharp
plague my dreams with the sight

it was heartbreaking
seeing you so helpless
i was feeling helpless myself
and neither of us could do a thing
except wait

wait and wait i did
until the doctor gave the ok at 2 am
and you finally came alive
i couldn’t help crying
and feeling helpless

posted by Open Source Food @ 10:58 PM