migblog

holy shit, it's been a loooooong time.

i've been back in berkeley for over two weeks now, and every chance coming gets crazier and crazier as the days seem to get more and more mundane. it's actually a bit of a relief seeing everything happening for once, and not worrying over summer school (since i'm not taking any classes). i did get the tour guide job i wanted, and so far i've been shadowing people left and right to get a feel for what i should eventually be doing.

i never learned so much about the school i go to, and the facts and statistics are all mind-boggling. it's pretty cool to find out really random facts about a university -- let alone berkeley -- and the more tours i shadow, the more absurd the facts seem, yet so credibly pertinent. (plus, it's cool to get paid to walk around and spout off about something you love, so it's a win-win situation, i guess.)

everything else is going fine. the reason i haven't been writing in this damn thing is that i don't have internet at my apartment anymore, so i have to go on campus and look at stuff when i work, or god forbid visit someone else's house since i'm so ghetto like that. (mind you i don't even have a bed anymore at my apartment, so i've been sleeping on a blanket, three pillows and a comforter on hardwood floor every night for about a week now.) yeah, i guess you could say everything's going fine, since i'm only moderately going crazy.

it actually is a bit challenging living by yourself, as so cruelly demonstrated by my current living situation, and things have only been getting weirder. i get really random bouts of that aforementioned clinical depression -- which is good that i realize it, i guess, but still, realziing something that makes you horribly sad is another thing -- and so sometimes i just really do want to just curl up in the corner with my blanket and fall asleep, but i can't since i can't even motivate myself to close my eyes and start dreaming.

i've been watching movies a lot lately to take my mind off of things, which is also good. i've rediscovered matt damon (good will hunting, the bourne identity, and even the talented mr. ripley), applauded michael moore again for bowling for columbine, laughed and cried with seasons one and two of bbc's the office, and found out over and over again who keyser soze is (the usual suspects, for those of you who didn't know). it's nice to escape once in a while.

but when the movie's over, it's tough to fathom that i still have to do my stuff here at berkeley, to continue on however boring my day was. despite the lack of things to do, i found myself ridiculously busy because i've made myself decidedly so.

i haven't hung out with anyone, really, since i've acted so busily recently. rest assured, i'm going to need a break really soon -- really, really, really soon -- so you'll hear from me yet.

it's been a good sort of summer so far, despite the june gloom settling over the bay area (on the first day of summer, it was actually only about seventy degrees in the east bay). i've been content. but things can definitely get better, and i really hope that they do.

sigh. go bears? give me a call, we'll hang out.

posted by Open Source Food @ 12:23 PM