migblog

there's been one thing that's been absolutely bugging the fuck out of me, and that's when people use stupid excuses as crutches, to the point where they get a little too dejected and then have to cover up their own ass for safety.

i mean, i do it all the time whenever i play on the oboe poorly. i say it's the reed; most of the time, really, it's my not supporting my sound or my not wanting to play. but it's different when it affects your life choices and those alleged big deals we're all told we should look out for.

i hate it when people use stupid excuses to get out of things, to get out of the bounds of good taste and common sense just so you can attribute one of your character flaws -- lack of motivation, apathy, dependence -- as part of your personality, and that it's not something you can cope with but rather something you deal with everyday.

i only need to take a look around me and then i realize it's happening really close to me. and it sucks, because i don't have the guts to tell someone off about their being petty or their lack of drive to apply themselves, which could potentially offset this irk i'm feeling.

but to make it general, here's what i have to say: don't use that as a crutch. i know you so much better than that, and you're so much better than that, that applying yourself -- really applying yourself and finding some sort of inner drive to somehow compel you into thinking about it once or twice -- will be easy enough when you finally come to terms that you're just lying to yourself in the end.

i hope you realize this. but if you don't, i'm just hoping it's not too late when it does click, if ever.

sigh.

posted by Open Source Food @ 8:03 PM