migblog

you know, jake, for having known you for only about four months, i can honestly say that you are one of the most interesting and true people i have ever met. you remind me a lot of my good ol' friends back in the day, the ones i would see almost constantly, the ones who knew each and every little quirk of mine. even when i started pestering and harrassing you about things, you just grinned and bore it. thanks, i guess. i mean, i guess i should be telling you this, but you know that i speak better with ink on paper, or in this case, code on a browser page.

you don't know how a simple smile on your face and a concerned look when you sat across from me tonight was so relieving and comforting. when i left after feeling like shit, you came looking for me. and hell, even during the thing, you cracked jokes. there's really no better feeling when the range of emotions i experience at a particular moment change from bitter agony to relieved laughter. in four months, i grew a lot closer to you than to much anyone else in this entire university, sharing some interesting and zany things with you i never thought i'd be able to. in the span of four months, i've violated your personal space, helped you out with your various problems and issues, tease you, and hell, even slept in your bed. and what do you do? you just give it right back. even the bed thing.

so i guess what i'm trying to say while trying to be really verbose and circumlocutory is THANK YOU. you don't know how much i appreciate that quick attentiveness you have whenever i have an episode or when you just start randomly giving me stuff. thank you, i don't know how many times i'll have to say it for it to register in my head or have it be sincere or have it mean anything, but that's all i'm really trying to say. i don't say it enough, and i doubt i ever will, but you have to know how much i value something like this, someone like you, as a friend, and to an extent, the older brother i really wanted (cos honestly, the one i have now isn't particularly interesting).

when you look at this and then look at me from across the room and wonder why i wrote it, just close your eyes. think of happy things. think of things that would never be the same, and think of things that will forever remain the same in your memory. cherish them with all your heart, love them with all your soul, and remember that those are the types of things i'm extremely thankful for.

thanks, jake. thanks for everything.

posted by Open Source Food @ 10:42 PM